Pure Panic

I think that my house has sold, I am freaking out. Now at least I wont have a big house payment, (Ryan, the wonderful X he is gets the equity since his lawyer screwed me over and I thought we would split it, oh well positive thoughts) I met the people today that want it, they are sooo nice, and will fit in soo well in Bear River, the husband reminds me so much of grandpa, they want to turn the whole back yard into a garden with fruit tree's and etc, I'm not sure what I am going to do, they want to be in by april 18th, I want the kids to finish school in BRC, I thought about getting a 5th wheel and parking it somewhere in brc during the week and staying at my moms on the weekend, isnt that such a responsible plan- here i am trailer trash- I will be praying for some kind of guidance for the next few weeks, please include me in your prayers, and if I can park my trailer at your house let me know!!! ~lol~ stace

Spring Fun

We really have had some fun this spring. This year Macie made an egg for the school egg drop, she placed a raw egg in a can and stuffed it full of foam, it was then dropped out of a airplane. To our disappointment, the egg didn't survive! It was fun anyways!

We also have been fishing at Pioneer Park, we didn't catch anything and it was really cold, but still nice to get out!

So Bored!!

The kids are out of school for 5 days for spring break, unfortunately, Scott is sick and so I am taking care of him at my house. I cant complain much we did just get back from San Diego but I am feeling cooped up and lets just say, I'm glad women give birth cuz I sure don't think the world would have much population if the men had too.. Yes read between the lines, men are big babies! I complain a lot when I am sick but I still cook for myself and take care of the kids...I'm irritated ITS JUST A ULCER, he thinks he's dying its been 3 days now of moans and groans and DRAMATIC words like "I'm not doing good, tell me I will get better soon" can I say it again ITS JUST A ULCER. When he says I love you to the kids, he acts like he's saying his last words. Brox in all seriousness said yesterday when Scott was walking around that he looked like he was a special needs person. And Macie said today when is Scott going to be normal again. I really should be more compassionate and be a good nurse but really enough is enough! Well I better go and make more Broth!!

Cousin Where are U???

Alice, where are you? I haven't heard from you in what seems like a eternity please respond!!

I miss you!!

San Diego info

Fun in the sun!









if you look in the reflection of our glasses you can see how great the view was....hee hee i should have asked someone to take the picture for us.










Well needless to say we had a blast in SD. It was Scott's first time their and he loved it! We are so compatible he is so mellow, and such a gentleman ( I never had to carry my suite case once!) He's been great with the kids and enriched their lives so much and all of our trips have been with them so this one without kids was especially relaxing. We Spent time in Coronado, went to a swap meet, went to the botanical gardens at Balboa Park, rented Kayaks and paddled our way out into the ocean. That was incredible! We saw Sea Lions, Dolphins, Leopard Sharks and Jelly fish all out in their own natural environment, it truly was unbelievable! I did get sick I have to admit, being in a tiny kayak with HUGE waves and swells crashing over me, it would have been better if I would have taken a Dramamine. Oh well! It was great fun anyway for 2 days....

SD here I come!!!!!

So a little whining must go far! This week a very cheep flight came up to San diego..my very favorite place in the whole world! And thanks to my very special mother she is going to watch my kids for me while I go! Its only going to be 3 days but I promise they will be wonderful! Thanks ma, I will post my pictures as soon as I come back!

Picture Explanations

So in June we went on a trip to San Diego, it had been 3 days of so much fun and 7 more to go. We then got a phone call that uncle Rog was very sick and Aunt Bett needed to go home. We all became so depressed because she needed the vacation more than any of us. After dropping her off at the airport we just couldnt snap out of our depression. Then we said we would blow up her face on a picture and hold it up in all our experiences so it would be like she was there. We were at walgreens waiting for the picture enlargement and my mother and ally came across the yellow fluffy pillow that reminded them of bettes hair. We then put the picture on the pillow and named her bette ann. She then came with us on the rest of our vacation she was pretty much in every picture and we pretended to have her do things that Aunt Bett would be doing. such as showering with a shower cap, watching shamu, ride with us on rides, etc.. We spent alot of time laughing until we cried or peed with Bette Ann.

D-I-V-O-R-C-E

I cant lie being divorced is so hard. Not just for me and the kids but everyone experiences the loss. I have lost very close friends just from their own judgments and them not knowing how to deal. But ones that have stayed I cherish, we have gotten closer than I could imagine. For that I thank everyone who has been there for all the phone calls, all the tears and all the joyful stories. I am trying let me say it again TRYING to be positive about my X, but it seems daily there is some new drama. Today me nor the kids have heard from him in a week, my pathetic amount of child support is late and he hasn't even touched paying his 1/2 for Broxtons medical bills, or daycare expenses. I still have to come up with the minimum payments and I have to hire a lawyer to get those expenses reimbursed and for some reason, he gets to do what he wants when he wants to, with no accountability or responsibility. Its difficult to not be bitter. Today he asks me to look for his birth certificate. I' m sure its so he can get a passport so him and his current for the moment trashy girlfriend can go on a vacation. He wont need to worry about who will get the kids off to school when hes gone, who will be watching them and if they will be OK. These are only things I, their mother have to worry about. And although I and every other single mother deserve a vacation, we wont be able to go. For one who can find childcare without inconveniencing and with me still having to pay all the other payments I wont be able to afford one just yet. So here I am bitter and pissed and maybe a little jealous of all of his freedoms...... And then that still small voice whispered in my head... I get to smell my kids breath every morning, I am the one who gets to see them look so grownup walking out of the school everyday. I am the one who gets to teach them about responsibility and I am the one who gets to beam with pride when they show a characteristic that I have been trying so hard to in force. He gets the freedom but I get the moments! There is no comparison. I am so blessed.... so very blessed!

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So help

im not sure what you do with this, you just type about your life> but how do you know when other people add posts to their sites? I will figure it out and put some pictures up and stuff i promise when i get it all figured out. Dustin stayed down this weekend it was so fun watching his kids play with mine, it so reminds me of all my precious memories with my wonderful cousins, there is nothing like family its such an unbelievable feeling knowing that you belong that your accepted and loved for just being you.